It's summer, and I've been caught in a whirlwind of work. But the season demands a break now and then. The yard is green, the flowers in bloom. It's not so hot the sun
has killed everything yet, nor have Santa Ana winds delivered the
additional punch to parch and usher in fires. No, this is early summer
--a happy time to be outside. The agapanthus are blooming. The purple
puffs of color bouncing in the slight breeze. The draping boughs of the
large Chinese elm frame the view of the hill abroad as if it were a
sentimental portrait of a time gone by.
The kids... they're not
kids anymore. One is a teen, the other an adult. They're our loves, our
delights, our concern and sometimes our annoyance. The other day they
renamed our cat "Phil." I don't think he looks like a Phil, and so I
cringe each time they say it. I think it's unfair to rename a cat,
however, the feline creature never asked for the name Panda,
ar is still a daily thought. An unsettling thought to most. W
ar is like a large, lumbering, unwanted family member, who comes to take a permanent seat on our sofa. W
ar doesn't say much, and so most times we can ignore him. We have a lot of time to study W
however, we spend more time doing other things. However, when I do
pause to stare at the wheezing, shifting, luminous presence of W
I take in the trinkets falling from his pockets: loss, despair,
victory, and love. Grief, exhilaration, sorrow, bravery, and fear.
Pride, sadness, acceptance, death, and irony. Brilliance, stupidity,
vulnerability, wisdom, and yes --even gratitude.
And it's this last thing that often amazes others --even me. Because the truth is, when W
ar shows up it forces me to slow down, realize how very lucky I am. Lucky because I have a husband who is doing good works saving lives, bringing comfort to many. We're lucky because we have two kids who are able rename our cat "Phil." And fortunate just to be here --looking at the agapanthus in bloom. Thankful that we can keep going on in the bigger military family. We are, after all, strongest when
we stay in this together.
Me. Army wife. Grateful. Happy. Focused. Living with purpose.